The Violence of the Human Spirit

I am angry.

I am angry that a human would do this.

I am angry that you will harm another, that the race I belong to, the human race, is capable of such monstrosity.

I am angry that my fellow brothers and sisters are victims of violence.

I am angry because my fellow human beings decided today I will blast, I will harm, I will maime, I will Kill. 

Today, I am angry at the stupidity of mankind. 

Today, I am angry at the spirit of man, the mean, ugly spirit of mankind.

I am angry that a person’s conscience fails them.

Today, I am angry at myself.

I am angry at feeling helpless.

I am angry at watching the world be torn apart.

I am angry at feeling unable to believe in human kind.

But that would mean you would have won.

That would mean that you have succeeded in creating fear in me. 

I won’t let you. 

You WILL NOT cause me fear. 

You WILL NOT cause me injustice.

You WILL NOT cause me to lose hope.

I WILL NOT LET YOU.

I will not let you win.

I will not let you make me feel afraid anymore. I will not let you make me feel angry anymore.

Each day I will do my part. 

I will be as human as I possibly can be. 

I will remember my responsibilities to my fellow man.

But I will not let you make me afraid. I will not let you. 

I will not let you make me forget how much responsibility I have to the people around me.

To the world I belong in. 

To my human race.

You have tried time and time again. You have tested the limits of man. You have broadened the ugliness of man.

But I will not let you win. I will not let this unnamed bastard win. 

Today, I mourn for humanity. 

I mourn for the victims of violence.

But I will rejoice in knowing you have not brought us down. You have failed today. 

I see man, I SEE your ugliness. 

But I see those fighting against it. 

I see the kindness that comes from an unnamed woman giving a child a hug.

From the people that have decided to help each other.

From a global unity of thoughts that go AGAINST what you did.

From the simplicity that people point at your actions and are conscious that what you did is wrong.

I see kindness in the people that have decided to help each other.

In the messages that pour from all over the world for the well being of another.

I choose to believe in the good. 

And those taking action.

And that gives me hope. 

Don’t get me wrong, I am still angry.

But I will be even more angry with myself if I let you win.

And I cannot let that happen, no matter how much you try I WILL NOT LET THAT HAPPEN.

I will keep believing in the good of humanity. I will keep believing in the good of the human spirit.

Because if I do not, I have lost and you have won.

And I will not let that happen. 

*In memory of the victims of violence that have occured all over the world today.

And an 8 year boy who died watching his father cross the finish line.*